today is definitely a miserable day for me!! and it's the most miserable one!!! argh!! i'm sick of living in this world.. really..i mean it!! yesterday stay up till 1.30am to study for my biology and a maths tests.. really put my 75% concentration on it.. the remaining 25% is gone cos i nearly fallen asleep when i'm studying.. crack my head.. have been wondering all this while why am i so tired nowadays and what i mean tired is those kind of extreme tiredness.. am i lacking of sleep or is it i'm old already?? sigh.. i really can't concentrate well into my studies during the night nowadays.. i really can't.. is totally different from last time.. i think i should drink some herbs to get myself more energetic and awake now..sigh..i've been lacking of sleep nowadays..just for the sake of studying..this's the fourth time i've been revising my biology notes..do get a bit bored indeed..but can't give up.i've to revise it once more..today a maths test..sigh..numb..i've nothing much to say..sigh..i'm going to fail ler!!!it's extremely difficult lor..i surely fail!!the moment i work on the first question..stunned..i don't even know how to do!! furthermore it carries 10 marks..i just feeling like giving up for this question but i get just let my full 10 marks gone right..i've to try it out at least..but i just don't know how to do and the rest of the four questions are just the same..DIFFICULT!!..so after recess having physic lessons..it really make me feeling down..from bad to worse..the 'worsest'!!my result is just going to remain at this stage..no place of improvement anymore..sigh...it's all beacuse of that webquest project..it has caused me to fail for my physic test so badly..wanna know why..it's cos before the day i've my physic test..i just have to try to finish up portions of it..3/4!! and in the end i've not enough sleep!! sickening!! alright i know i'm just trying to shield myself..lying to myself..trying to push the responsibility to that..it's just deserving me right..can..sigh..i really wanna improve myself but there's no way at all..arh!!i really feel like crying out..i just want to kill myself and get this miserable live off me..desperately!!!i just went numb and expressionless the moment i've taken back my paper..and that's torturing you know..that kind of feeling you'll never be able to endure.NEVER!!is just like i've been carrying a full loads of burden and i'm really feel like giving up..arh!!!luckily the biology test runs well for me..at least i'm able to do it and most of the mcq questions is from the 10yr series..haha..
the sick world_fails all the way
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