Haha. finally I'm back again.finally I can use my computer once more!! Haha. persuaded my mum damn long before she finally allows mi to use my computer. sigh. whatever the least, today is another bad day for mi. such an bored and sad day. i should be glad that today is the last day of the week. should be celebrating right now. nah.. however i don't even have the mood to do so. i'm just feeling low today. not only feeling BORED but feeling extremely low Low LOW. i will be getting depression sooner or later. i don't feel like talking to anyone else even in msn. sigh. just wanted to isolate myself in a corner. don't care about mi. indeed nobody really wants to care about mi honestly. sigh. really wanted to isolate myself and be in my world. that's all. but can i??sigh. lots of thing had been happening recently. i really have enough of thinking about this and that. just wanna throw all the burdens off my shoulders. sigh Sigh SIGH.. today felt terribly upset. during physic lesson. when the teacher was teaching the new chapter, everyone seems to be able to understand whereas mi.. i went stunned. i'm puzzled. i DON'T know a single thing. i don't understand at all. no matter how I tried my best to focus, there's no use at all. i just don't understand and when the teacher told us to hand in the worksheet to her by today. i really felt..crazy?? in the end, everyone has done their work and they've gone whereas for mi.. i just kept on trying on the worksheet and I'm alone.. the only one who is still struggling to finish my work. when I've done and looked around the lab.. no one.no one.except vivien. you know, that kind of feeling will never feel good. at that very moment, I really felt that I'm extremely useless. i'm just a failure!! can't even did a simple work,well. i HATE myself for being so useless. I HATE MYSELF!! i'm such a loser. after this particular incident, the rest of the day I just feeling down, moody and WORSEN. how I wish there will be a kind soul out there to cheer mi up. sigh. so sorry guys, yes I'm referring to YOU.. sorry.. i just wanted to isolate myself for that moment. hope you all will understand. sigh. searching everywhere to find something to cheer mi up. chocolate?? oh!i've finished all my chocolate. sick. but nevermind tomorrow I'll go and buy some. haha. yeeah!! tomorrow going out with my primary schoolmate. hope this would cheer mi up somehow. let's pray and see.
I'm useless
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