*||feeling emotionless||*

yox..english standardised test had finally over..it's an end..however i don't feel that happiness inside mii..i don't feel happy at all..emotionless..like a walking corpse..haha=)..but it's really true..it's not an end after all cos i've to wait for the result to come out.. and that's even make mii feel miserable..the torture is still not over yet or rather should i say.. it's only just the beginning of the 'game'..sob..waiting for the test paper to be released it's so torturing for mii..i really have no confidence in myself that i'll be able to pass..not even have a single hope..i really don't what to see this to happen but what can i do..sigh..oh god..can you please help mii?? please?? i really want to pass my test especially english language...i really hoping for it desperately..i'm getting hopeless now..there's no solution to my problem..none..sob..sigh..what's bygone is bygone..anyway i've really put my best effort into this test[maybe] and i'm taking it extremely serious about it..even if i've to get an F..i'm alright with it[that's just comforting myself]..sigh..let's drop this topic and forge about it...wanna continue with my normal life rountine...nowadays..feeling nothing special..just schooling and homework...nothing much..but feel that i'm able to listen to the lessons even more attentively in class now..but not every subjects of course..subjects like biology. e maths..cos there's no one to chat in biology and the sitting arrangment[able to see the board more clearly] in e maths.anyway yesterday just feeling refreshing..able to breathe in cool air[cos raining]..mind is more awake.brain able to work better..haha..however nowadays feeling emotionless..beside laughing.not much..feeling quite numb..maybe i'm too tired to show any expression..just wanna to be my own self...sigh..works are going to be endless..no time for mii to sleep..sigh..zzzzz
waiting miserably