sigh.sigh.tomorrow english standardised test.i really want to cry out.i'm terribly afraid now.will i pass my english test tomorrow?? will i?? i'm afraid not. i'm so terrified.i'm so worried.oh gosh..i really can't control myself from thinking all about this..i really can't.in short.i'm so scared now.trembling with fear.it's a nightmare for me.really.frankly true.i just can't resist it after all.i've that experience.the taste of failure.it makes my feel so miserable.i've been tortured all this while and now it going to make me feel it again..argh!!! why??why??i don't want to fail my english paper again but can i?? i really don't think so.it's not that i didn't want to give myself confidence or the only courage that has left with mii..it's just that i can't face it.i scared that the more i give myself plenty of courage.the more suffering i'll get at the end..no.i don't want it to happen..how?? what should i do?? i can't give up right or rather should i say.i don't even have the choice of giving up..sigh..look..i don't even know what am i talking about now..sigh..i don't want to face it..i don't want to take the test..cos the memory will once again appear in my mind.that sickening memory made mii so torturing..i don't want to recall it..it's horrible..ah!! tomorrow how?!! i'll definitely fail my english again..i can't do anything now except practice.practice.practice and that's all i can do..nothing else..sob..that's no way out..no solution at all..i wanna escape but can i?? absolutely NO..sigh..i've no choice but to face it.. it's driving mii crazy now!!! [am i pushing myself way too hard??]
no hope at all
No comments:
Post a Comment