gloomy gloomy day

-national geographic


my arms, my ribs and my back are aching.
my body is so stiff that i seriously hate myself for being lazy.
i want to exercise badly!
not just the jogging and climbing up the stairs kind of exercise
but rather swimming, basketball-ing and cycling...
i love i love :)
but you know, friends aren't so free as me.
time to ponder.
should i buy something for my parents and grandparents for this x'mas?
i'm really guilty for not showing them i still care for them.
obviously, they started to feel that i'm inhuman.
the lack of concern and love for everyone.
right, expectantly they haven't understand me well enough
cos' i'm so unpredictable.
that's the fact.
every now and then, they try to instill a set of traditional values into me.
in a nicer way to say, moral values.
i was pretty surprised when daddy told me NO alcohol is allowed for me!
ya, as if i'm craving for it... -sarcastic tone-
but you know, despite i hate drinking, i never expect this from daddy.
i feel like i'm back into this tiny and overprotected cage.
not in a bad way though.
but i want challenges.
i don't like everything to be decided for me.
and they never seem to realise it. :(
ohh, i didn't realise i really share my concrete feelings here.
time to loosen up again~