As?

wow, As has finally ended.
you know, i seriously can't believe this.
a year ago, you thought As is such a long way ahead of you.
you were afraid of taking the national exam.
but a wink of an eye, As has over.
frankly speaking, the thought of it scares me.
how i hope As is a continous thing.
yes, you didn't see it wrongly.
i want it to continue...
cos getting back the results isn't good.
i don't want to see how terrible i've scored.
i'm really tired, mentally.
i couldn't feel the excitement in me
despite As has over.
i don't feel the urge to look for a job anymore.
again, i look more like a walking zombie.

okay, books tmr.
i can't rot my life away.
i guess i'm going HK during cny!
i hate my parents and grandparents for treating me so good
cos i've let them down totally :(