||pissed||

these thoughts had been lingering in my mind all these while
and
it has haunted me for so long!
i'm pondering...
i'm pondering why people always change in one way or the others.
i simply couldn't know why they've been changing so fast
before i know them well enough.
whether is it changing for the better or vice versa,
it's only a distance apart
and it's all depends on the person, itself,
i don't seem to understand them any longer.
it hits me hard
seriously,
i'm sad;
i'm fatigue
sorrow is piercing through my heard
which really tears my heart apart.
to be frank,
i've no idea what's exactly up to me.
perhaps i'm too tired of life and
i felt sick.

how i hope that i could leave this mess life
and bang hard to the wall now
simply hate my life here,
jesus.

or is it me who had changed instead

whom i judge the others in my own, sensitive way