damn!! today is just another distasteful DAY for me! and i was just feeling so-so pissed off by today's incident. look, everything gone well today yet i was feeling so moody. well, you should know the reason and i don't even want to mention it. HORRIBLE!! i just can't stand it. we've been scolded and it thought that we're just so SHOWING-OFF. but we're not, we're just stating the fact and hope for its understanding. nah, it doesn't seem to understand and we've gotten so much pressure. yar yar, the plain truth is that it doesn't even experienced it before. for goddness sake. i just feel extremely agitated about it. so what if we didn't join, at least it should put itself into our position and stop comparing it with us. i've enough of being compared with, i'm sick and tired of it. you've your personality and i've mine. so, i just tuned myself into my own world and went speechless in the meantime. i've nothing to say, really i mean it, nothing gets into my mind. in other words, i don't even bother to voice back,it'll definitely debate back. it'll never ends. and from what i can tell you'll definitely ended up losing. majority vesus the minority. so what if we take our initiative to join, it'll never appreciate it and would immediately forgetten. but i don't mean that it've to give us any reward, i just wanted it to know that at least we'd done something out of it. i feel like crying but i tried my very best to bottom it up. i don't want to let it knows that i'm weak cos it'll further bully me. i don't want to show that to it so i just went looking else where, hoping that it won't see it. however, i was influenced by HER that makes me wanted to cry out at last. but i want to emphasize that my tears only went down my cheeks AFTER i'd left. doing whatever i can to comfort HER at the same time. i really understand her feelings. well of course i've experienced it before and it was so - [i don't know how to describe] it's just feeling pain and sour, ya? being pressurised and i guess SHE does pushes herself too hard. tried to cool down, okay. if you've viewed my entry. give yourself some spaces and remember that those obstacles that are in front of you will eventually turned into your motivation. hehe. but at this very moment, i feel so miserable cos i've thought of so much things in my mind. what if i failed? what am i supposed to do? where can i find my own world? am i thinking too much? sigh. i was EXTREMELY down today and i would like to end this topic right at this moment. i'm just puking nonsense over here. i don't feel like studying and doing my homework right now. i'm feeling moody and SOUR can. in other words, i don't even have the mood to do so. am i too TIRED to live in this way?? yea, i am...
[i'm regret to waste my time unnecessarily]
feeling emotionless
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