well, today is totally a horrible day for me!! it's just ruining my mood for the whole day. arg!! sickening!! i can't help but to say all this. sigh. yesterday was just a resting day for me. lights off at around 10.30?? yar, guess so. cos i was so fatigue that i couldn't even bother to look at the clock. i just wanted to sleep in earlier when suddenly, my mum called me to EAT dessert. oh god. but it's alright anyway, what i've to do is to eat FASTER!! and in the end, i spend about half an hour to eat finish, ya. sigh. and guess what, i just lunged to my bed and SLEEP. god, got to gain weight sooner or later. hehe. anyway, yesterday, i was just sleeping like log cos i've never sleep so earlier before. hehe. and today such a distasteful day for me. having a maths test in the morning and i was so so confidence that i'll get full mark cos i know how to do, ya. however, god is not siding me!! i've done the last question wrongly and before i've realised that, i've handed in my paper!! gosh! just what's going up to my mind. i should have check with the rest the answer right. i mean i should check the answer in the end-of-year paper with the people around earlier on and clarify my doubts. and nah, i just thought my answers are accurate and 'copy and paste' to the test paper. over-confidence huh. i was so regret! and i mean it, i'm so miserable now! i feel like crying and my heart is feeling the pain right now, CRYING. oh my, how can i be so 'careless'? sigh. whatever. what'd done is done, there's no turning back right now. no matter how sorrow i am, my result isn't going to change, isn't it. it's the plain FACT! i hate myself, i HATE it. i wanted to score for my a maths, but i just couldn't do so. my path is obvious for me to see right now, the path towards failure. i just can't help it but to find myself useless and i was DROWNING. i was regret, totally regret! SOB.
i'm drowned
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